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Girlyman   will be at the Fine Line on Thursday night. I'm going to try and go. It may be the last hurrah with my friend R who is planning a move to Pittsburgh. Yes, R, R and L (Me).

We'd also go with R who is P's son. I really enjoy him. I've known him almost as long as I've known P. She introduced me to him when we went to see Brokeback Mountain (was that New Year's?) sometime around that time of year. R was born female and transitioned about 5 years ago (?) I've only known him as R. Apparently, P had some difficulty with it but I don't and she seems to be doing better with it since I don't have a problem with it. I've got a lot of trans folks in my life. A former gf is in the process, neighbor who is mtf and a few more folks that I know to lesser degrees. I guess I don't see what the big issue is for people who appear to be afraid think there is something wrong with it. I think gender and sexual orientation can be very fluid for some folks. My sexual orientation is more fluid, my gender while definately female is closer to the androgynous end versus the very femmine end(of course, for me, it also really depends on my mood, clothing and etc) GRIN

I actually really feel a kinship with the people that tend to not fit neatly in any dualistic categories. I don't fit perfectly and never have. I use to hate it when I was growing up because I felt like I didn't know who I was, too chameleon like.  I've come to realize, accept and really value the fact that I very often am intune with both sides of my personality (introvert who loves people and etc) I like the people who are on the outskirts and don't fit in, perhaps because of the sense of disregard from the masses of these folks, there is freedom to really be who they are. 

Interestingly enough, the book that my Dad last talked about before he died titled Short Bus: A Journey Beyond Normal where the author drove around the country in a (get ready for this) a "Short Bus" (you know the kind the little yellow school buses) talking to people who because of some sense of "otherness" lived very different (and not so different) lives. This included "Cookie" who is a transgendered lobster fisherman person  in Maine.
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I consider myself a lesbian identified bisexual or I also label myself queer for short and sometimes just lesbian. And what this means to me is that I'm more attracted to women than men but if I met an amazing man (and I was single), I wouldn't exclude that possiblity. Right now I'm in a relationship with an amazing woman, I would like it to last a lifetime but I don't know if it will. :-(

At one point in my life, I was open to nonmonogamy for myself but that has changed. I think I was more open to it because I hadn't come out to myself as attracted to women and I was very dissatisfied with my marriage to a man. For me, polyamory is too difficult for what I'm really looking for in my life. It certainly may work for other people, but not something I want.

I want that monogamous committed relationship where we plan our life together.

Bisexuality means someone has the potential to be in a relationship with either gender. It doesn't mean you want to have sex with both genders. ala "have your cake and eat it too" I think lots of people have biphobia where they think they can't trust someone who identifes as bi because they are "fence sitters", "can't make up their mind" or "may change their mind at any time".

To me, Sex/making love is more about the physical manifestation of your love with that person. Gender is not something that is a huge deal for me, I'm more attracted to the female physical form and the characteristics/attributes that are most attractive to me are most often found in women.

What do you consider yourself? Do you think I mislead people when I use my short cut identity of lesbian or bi?

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