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 What a week, between work, dad's estate stuff (stoopid attorneys), life and etc. I'm just exhausted.  I'm starting to have to write everything down and keep track of it in my palm (thanks to P! It really helps) I have some social things that I want to do in the month of October - including my 20 year high school reunion! 

Yesterday I had to drive 70 miles one way to go sign some paperwork so that I can be offically appointed executor in the eyes of the court and back again to work. Can you say PAIN in the BUTT? I did finally make an appointment with my Dad's financial planner to go over my share of his retirement, it's on 10/9. 

When I drove home, I stopped at my sisters to pick up the paperwork for the application for new service to install electricity to my Dad's cabin. We talked and I enjoyed it, had to get home to the boy. We talked and I enjoyed it and then I called my Dad's partner, I hadn't talked to her in a while. She's not doing well, I'm trying to not be intrusive but wanting to make sure she doesn't get lost inside. Her nephew is probably going to have to drop out of school for a year at least (hopefully no permanent damaged has been done). It's just so horrible.

I'm finally getting ready to go to bed, read a little bit finished "The Day My Dad Died: Women Share their Stories of Love, Loss and Grief" and I was just about to go to sleep when B called. She wasn't in a good spot. I really enjoy B despite the fact she adamantly denies she's an alcoholic. Her and J were fighting and J finally put her foot down. Everyone feels bad for J because we all know that we couldn't handle B as much as we love her. As I do love her, I want her to be safe so I asked her what she needed to be safe. She said she needed to go to her car and than to J's. She wasn't in any shape to drive in my opinion but I'm sure she's driven in worse shape. I told her I'd come pick her up and take her when she needed to go (even if she was locked out, she could crash at my house). We eventually got to J's house and I think she changed the locks, B knocked on the window and J woke up and they had a "discussion" because I promised to stay to make sure B was okay with staying there, I had to wait. No one likes to argue in front of anyone, we've all been there likely so I felt bad that I was listening there. Eventually B said that I could go, I wanted to make sure J knew that I loved her too. Hugged J (who is normally pretty good at keeping those bootstraps up, held me tight and cried hard on my shoulders). I let them know that I loved them both and hoped they could work through what they needed to. I think I was home by 1:15am, before I had to be up by 6am but I couldn't settle down until almost 2am. 

Perhaps, that's why I'm not very productive today.

I did give P the heads up and let her know that I won't be very good packing for our camping weekend when I get home from work. She was great about that.
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I'm so bored.

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So tonight is the night that I don't have to work so late and I was hoping A would be willing to do something together. He refused. I also was going to make soup and salad for dinner, he took off for about an hour without telling me where he was going...turns out he rode his bike to McPuke and bought his own dinner. He is refusing to talk about his feelings and why he's so upset. He mentioned something like "...you'll find out tomorrow" but wouldn't elaborate. I grounded him from his "screens" and explained about how worried I was not knowing where he was, especially with the storm/tornado watch/warnings. He was quite teary and upset during this time but wouldn't talk. Thoughts were running through my mind....like he was planning something with his Dad so that he wouldn't have to spend the weekend with me, or his Dad was going to go to court to take him from me. Irrationally I'm freaking out but the other rational side of me says that would be unlikely. First off, his Dad would be going against the court agreement with regards to independence weekend and I doubt he could handle A full time. I did explain to A why I was so upset....I've been thinking that my life runs in 7 year cycles and a new one is due. 1998 Independence weekend is when I came home to an empty house...not that I really was upset that he left...but like usual with my ex, he didn't discuss anything about it...just did it. So, I'm probably totally projecting on A.

ARGH !!!

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