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So tonight is the night that I don't have to work so late and I was hoping A would be willing to do something together. He refused. I also was going to make soup and salad for dinner, he took off for about an hour without telling me where he was going...turns out he rode his bike to McPuke and bought his own dinner. He is refusing to talk about his feelings and why he's so upset. He mentioned something like "...you'll find out tomorrow" but wouldn't elaborate. I grounded him from his "screens" and explained about how worried I was not knowing where he was, especially with the storm/tornado watch/warnings. He was quite teary and upset during this time but wouldn't talk. Thoughts were running through my mind....like he was planning something with his Dad so that he wouldn't have to spend the weekend with me, or his Dad was going to go to court to take him from me. Irrationally I'm freaking out but the other rational side of me says that would be unlikely. First off, his Dad would be going against the court agreement with regards to independence weekend and I doubt he could handle A full time. I did explain to A why I was so upset....I've been thinking that my life runs in 7 year cycles and a new one is due. 1998 Independence weekend is when I came home to an empty house...not that I really was upset that he left...but like usual with my ex, he didn't discuss anything about it...just did it. So, I'm probably totally projecting on A.

ARGH !!!