Thank you for all your concern and support...

[zestfive]

I'm not so good about talking about stuff or identifying/asking for what I need.

Long tear filled late night conversation, both feeling tender and delicate. Baggage gets set off easily in all direction, walking through minefields. Wondering what does she want, why am I such a failure, how can I get through to her, is it better off ending, wanting us to be "better" again, and when we felt we were getting closer, seeing the light at the end of the storm, sometimes minefields get set off again. More communication, different terminology, different ways of talking, when will we learn each others language? 

I deliberately left out details and this is just my summary of some of the stuff last night. Things seem better this morning, back on track. We keep practicing at this. I think it can be especially hard when one person (or both) have learned to run instead of keep working, keep being vulnerable and keep being open to the other one.

I ask for your good thoughts and support and am open to any suggestions, information, helpful hints or sharing of your own experiences.

Also I responded to everyone's post but the words don't express my appreciation for your support, especially when I needed it.

Comments

[supremegoddess1.livejournal.com]

Good relationships aren't always smooth sailing. The fact that you guys are communicating means that you both are trying to work on it. I hope everything works out okay, but even if it doesn't, you will be a stronger person for having tried.

[grltalk.livejournal.com]

{{hugs}} It seems like you've been in this place several times. Relationships are hard.

[stagger-lee77.livejournal.com]

ahh. i know what you mean--i used to run so much that breaking up is the only threat i have left. kim knows i'm not really going to do that, but it still hurts her because my MO has been to act like an ass until i get dumped on my ass. i wish i knew what to tell you... but i don't know if anyone ever truly gets it right. i hope everything works out for the best.

[zestfive.livejournal.com]

thanks for your comments

[zestfive.livejournal.com]

Yeah, we keep plugging away at it

[zestfive.livejournal.com]

Thanks very much!