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zestfive ([personal profile] zestfive) wrote2007-07-31 03:50 pm
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Emo post

This is my emo post. 


I think I'm depressed, I hate feeling this way because then I feel like I'm weak. Intellectually, I know this isn't true but emotionally that's where I'm at. Normally I'm in a really good spot but right now I just want to lay in bed and read. I don't want to have to cook, clean, work or ? You would think that I just got the new Harry Potter and am busy reading it. Really I'm just feeling totally overwhelmed and uninspired with life. 

I know that lists help me...perhaps I should try that....but it requires effort and I'm not in the mood.

I know that I should feel pretty good because I'm only working 2 days a week until school starts and I have a job. Instead, I don't want to work at all and I want to lie around, read and sleep. My sleep schedule has been messed up for the last few days because I've been following P's schedule (she works nights you know) I realize how horrid it is for her to switch back and forth on the weekends. It doesn't help that she's been increasingly feeling worse and worse. 

I've got things that I have to do or want to do but have no motivation for it.

Okay, now I'm going to go home and think about how I can get out of this....

[identity profile] cluelessinchi.livejournal.com 2007-08-01 12:56 am (UTC)(link)
I am sorry you are in a funk... I know plenty of people who get this way in August. Just the opposite of SAD. I guess it makes sense...
I love your attitude. About finding a way to get out of it. I think you should treat yourself to movies, walks in the park, baths... things to do while you are alone and while you do have the time. Do something outside your place every day.. Even if it is just going to the library.. just do something. {{{{ hugs }}}}

[identity profile] zestfive.livejournal.com 2007-08-01 02:59 pm (UTC)(link)
I guess I didn't realize it until you pointed it out to me, I do have the ability to affect how I feel. Last night I went and worked out for an hour, something I haven't done in a while and I felt a little better. Today I hope to get my hair done and perhaps go shopping!

[identity profile] cluelessinchi.livejournal.com 2007-08-01 03:11 pm (UTC)(link)
As they say you can not give to someone what you do not have... it is important to take care of yourself.. To friend youself.. to love yourself. Otherwise there will be no energy to take care of others, be a friend to others or to love others.
It is also just a good practice to have as preventative mental health stuff so that you do not get yourself in these funks. Always a good thing to do... *grins*

Moon phases powerful mood manipulators

[identity profile] daphnis.livejournal.com 2007-08-01 05:40 am (UTC)(link)

Many women I've known through the years are intensely affected by the full moon's presence in their lives. I think this may be especially true for those of us who identify more with Goddess vibes or with the idea of 'Mother' Earth and 'Sister' Moon.

Lots of spiritual and emotional changes are occurring in our often complicated lives, especially during these mid-year months. share your unease with others, as you are doing here, and you may find that zillions of friends and acquaintances feel much the same.

Life's a bummer sometimes ~ other times it's a HOOT!

Re: Moon phases powerful mood manipulators

[identity profile] zestfive.livejournal.com 2007-08-01 03:02 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks for your message, I totally get it. I'm just not used to feeling this way... I might have to try some retail therapy if I can stand to spend money on myself. GRIN