zestfive | Emo post (Reply)

This is my emo post.

I think I'm depressed, I hate feeling this way because then I feel like I'm weak. Intellectually, I know this isn't true but emotionally that's where I'm at. Normally I'm in a really good spot but right now I just want to lay in bed and read. I don't want to have to cook, clean, work or ? You would think that I just got the new Harry Potter and am busy reading it. Really I'm just feeling totally overwhelmed and uninspired with life.

I know that lists help me...perhaps I should try that....but it requires effort and I'm not in the mood.

I know that I should feel pretty good because I'm only working 2 days a week until school starts and I have a job. Instead, I don't want to work at all and I want to lie around, read and sleep. My sleep schedule has been messed up for the last few days because I've been following P's schedule (she works nights you know) I realize how horrid it is for her to switch back and forth on the weekends. It doesn't help that she's been increasingly feeling worse and worse.

I've got things that I have to do or want to do but have no motivation for it.

Okay, now I'm going to go home and think about how I can get out of this....