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Busy weekend, I got a lot accomplished but there is still so much to do.
Lots of errands to run before class and I ended up a little late...Oops !
Sunday was church(visiting minister...not so great) and then laundry(which means I also got to watch some movies !!).
I was intending to watch 3 of them that I got at the library but because TK called 3 times during the first one, it took a lot longer to get through it.
TK continues to try and find the answer why we broke up and I'm growing tired of it. It's been 7 weeks and she's still trying to figure it out, I've tried to be patient and answer her questions but my answers don't seem to be good enough for her. I'm sure it doesn't help that this is her first relationship and she's very loyal. I think she thinks that anything can be resolved and fixed where I am a lot more jaded and feel that some things can't be fixed. I also fear that her disk problem in her back is psycho-somatic(started when we broke up, got better with some physical therapy but got worse when I told her that I didn't want to sleep with her for "...one last time"). She has different energy level, ambition and I'll admit that I'm being totally judgmental here...but she doesn't seem to care about herself and it's hard to be in a relationship with someone who doesn't care about themselves. It shows up to me by her not capitalizing the first letter in her name when she sends emails, to sacrificing her needs before anyone elses...I also think she assumes a lot of other people's needs...ie, doesn't bring up topics that she knows will bother someone...such as teaching her nieces about her sexuality(because her sister won't like it...but thinks that they will "know" without verbalizing it. My opinion on the whole thing with her nieces is that if it's not verbalized than they will also be taught that it's a "secret" and should not be talked about...often secret means bad.
Aarrghh... okay enough of the venting.
The movies I watched this weekend were....
"Life is Sweet" which was a bit odd and I felt it didn't end well...I need closure !!!
"Zus and Zo" which is a film from the Netherlands and was good but hard to watch (subtitles) when I was doing the laundry(read loud machines). "Bo" who is Halina Reijn is gorgeous. I also really enjoyed the song that plays while the credits play at the end "Some to Say Hi To" by Sarah Bettens of K's Choice. I wish I had a copy of it but it's hard to get(read import).
My friend RD just told me about a woman who she's been very interested in, but who was seeing someone else...so they've been "just friends". Apparently E has realized that things aren't going anywhere with M and so that opens the possibility of something with RD. RD spent the night at E's house and had a make out session. I'm happy for RD but fearful of what the outcome might be(read broken heart).
Okay, I've got to get to work !
Lots of errands to run before class and I ended up a little late...Oops !
Sunday was church(visiting minister...not so great) and then laundry(which means I also got to watch some movies !!).
I was intending to watch 3 of them that I got at the library but because TK called 3 times during the first one, it took a lot longer to get through it.
TK continues to try and find the answer why we broke up and I'm growing tired of it. It's been 7 weeks and she's still trying to figure it out, I've tried to be patient and answer her questions but my answers don't seem to be good enough for her. I'm sure it doesn't help that this is her first relationship and she's very loyal. I think she thinks that anything can be resolved and fixed where I am a lot more jaded and feel that some things can't be fixed. I also fear that her disk problem in her back is psycho-somatic(started when we broke up, got better with some physical therapy but got worse when I told her that I didn't want to sleep with her for "...one last time"). She has different energy level, ambition and I'll admit that I'm being totally judgmental here...but she doesn't seem to care about herself and it's hard to be in a relationship with someone who doesn't care about themselves. It shows up to me by her not capitalizing the first letter in her name when she sends emails, to sacrificing her needs before anyone elses...I also think she assumes a lot of other people's needs...ie, doesn't bring up topics that she knows will bother someone...such as teaching her nieces about her sexuality(because her sister won't like it...but thinks that they will "know" without verbalizing it. My opinion on the whole thing with her nieces is that if it's not verbalized than they will also be taught that it's a "secret" and should not be talked about...often secret means bad.
Aarrghh... okay enough of the venting.
The movies I watched this weekend were....
"Life is Sweet" which was a bit odd and I felt it didn't end well...I need closure !!!
"Zus and Zo" which is a film from the Netherlands and was good but hard to watch (subtitles) when I was doing the laundry(read loud machines). "Bo" who is Halina Reijn is gorgeous. I also really enjoyed the song that plays while the credits play at the end "Some to Say Hi To" by Sarah Bettens of K's Choice. I wish I had a copy of it but it's hard to get(read import).
My friend RD just told me about a woman who she's been very interested in, but who was seeing someone else...so they've been "just friends". Apparently E has realized that things aren't going anywhere with M and so that opens the possibility of something with RD. RD spent the night at E's house and had a make out session. I'm happy for RD but fearful of what the outcome might be(read broken heart).
Okay, I've got to get to work !
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I understand that completely. That's what happened, partly, to me & the boy. It is hard, and what's worse is when you try to talk about it, it can turn into an argument. It always seems that it turns into one person criticizing the other.
My biggest thing with my ex is that we both work at the same place and while he says he still wants to be friends (he e-mails me happy things), at work, he's really stand-offish and kind of just moody. But I think that's his normal state.
Good luck with your ex-and that's not really..logical to say since it won't help.